These knots are tied, double-knotted crossed with lies/ Please just let me go/
You’ve strung me on for far too long/ Too long so I gave up/
Everything about myself/ So I didn’t feel alone/
My magnetic heart still grasping on/ Afraid to let you go/
My feelings based on your expressions/ Expressed in a way that it’s sorta
depressing how I dress my pain/ I’m entertaining my oppressions/
Some days I wonder what it’d be like if the light on your face never glowed/
But I’d rather live in darkness than know/ I would rather rot than explode/
These bombs are exploding inside my head, but I’ve never been more alive,
these shadows of the darkness stride around with a little less pride/
I’ve dampered their spirits and I’ve set them aside/
Now I’m walking alone/ With no alibi
This life I lead/ Is all my own/
Can’t take that back if you tried/
If you love me so/ Please let me go/
Can’t take you back if I tried/
Demons and monsters that are living inside my brain won’t acknowledge the fact
that I’m staying positive, despite the impossible/
Or the common logic as something as simple that rhymes with orange/
Or provoking the knowledge that comes from a «Berklee Star» dropout/
How come I need acceptance/ Do you feel the same or am I alone/
I’m always second guessing myself instead I pretend/
I don’t feel any pain when inside my body’s aching, forsaking the decision to
stand up again/ And pretend that my knees aren’t shaking/
I’m scared of my own voice and what it might tell me so I just write it down/
In hopes I’m not the only one to see just how crazy I sound/
Handwritten in truth is the ink that bleeds from my skin/
Please bare with me I beg/ The blurry details, I’ve sinned/